How to Vacation by Yourself
Reminded of isolation
A curse that is drawn from the idea that I like to be alone.
Of course, I like to be alone
But that’s a lie everyone tells themselves
Vacation by yourself to see how fun you truly are
There’s no one to blame if you’re bored
Nor anyone to complain to
So that stays absent
I’m enjoying myself reluctantly
I have a gap I must mentally cross before I can truly have fun
I’m faded tho
Alone tho
Another day and I’m reminded of isolation, but this time it’s not an excruciating realization of sadness.
How to Vacation by Yourself…If You’re Introvert. Steps 1–3
Step 1: Disguise the title of your “How not to be alone plans” as “Book Ideas” so people that glance over don’t notice your endless amount of sadness. Or think you’re a serial killer. Because…you’re not.
Step one is so hard, damn that was a long title, by the way, because with step one, I always like to identify it with having not worked out in years — that first day is impossible. You just put it off, and have a “Me day” I get it. Leaving the room hurts; every step is death as you walk deeper leaving the shallows of the introvert tide pool, you question-what makes you do this?
BUT step one is a good first step — a little time and practice and you’ll be floating. The problem with step one is when you actually do execute order 66.
What do you do for step two?
Then you sit there for a while admiring your spirit which slowly melds away into you start to think that your arms now miraculously shorter, and you can’t stop touching them, this is normal.
Step 2: Universe answers
Step two can’t be planned or read into abundently, it’s a natural occurrence rewarded through pure luck and unique set of variables. AND when those variables are correct and possibilities become opportunities you have to turn it on — introverts.
Its hard to take notes during this step, I recommend just acknowledge the moment.
Step 3: Go to a club.
To be continued.
